I’m at a Jiffy Lube right now.
Apparently, your car is not supposed to leak oil.
Honestly, I didn’t even notice it was leaking until some gracious person pointed it, then realized there was almost no oil left anyway.
Is that what a blessing in disguise means?
Besides the oil setback, everything on this trip has come almost too easily. My laugh feels different. It’s lighter; easier.
I’m getting stopped by dogs left and right. I was walking up this hill and a golden retriever walked up behind me and then sat down right next to me. The next day a puppy spotted me, got away from its owner, and ran straight into my lap.
I’ve been told this dog energy is a good omen. Dogs tend to show us our heart-opening and can be a sign of a partnership coming into our life or something fulfilling we have been seeking.
The dog energy has been so in my face that I can’t really deny it. I began this journey thinking that I would encounter a cat when I find the place I’m meant to be at, but now with all the dogs I just think I’m meant to be with dogs instead.
And it’s not just dogs. Last week I was in Santa Fe and was writing about all the flirtatious energy and how cringe I am.
THIS week, I’m in Denver and it is similar to that energy, but on crack.
The day I got to Colorado, I hiked the Great Sand Dunes, drove 8 hours, then met the girl I’m staying with and decided that day was the best day to go clubbing. She took me to a LGBTQ club and within five minutes of being there, I was hit on…multiple times. It was an insane time.
The next day, I rolled out of bed, exhausted, hair still with some sand from the dunes, no makeup, and just sweats. We walked outside and then this passenger in a car pointed at me and goes “Hey, I hope you have a beautiful day.”
Throughout the rest of the day, I received compliments constantly and was even asked on a date. (Mind you I know no one in this city)
I bring all these experiences up, not to brag about my newfound magnetism, but to highlight how crazy it is when we ARE in our magnetism.
Up until the day I left New York, I was so certain that I was in my magnetism. I was getting bitter because I felt I was doing so many things, opening portals, setting boundaries, and getting clear on desires, yet I was faced with so much resistance. It felt like I kept punching upward.
I was knocking on doors that weren’t excited to greet me. I was just waiting for an external validation that was never going to come.
And now that I am in such high magnetism, it’s so hard to ignore when something is not in alignment. It’s not frustrating like back in New York, it’s more a feeling of being a scientist; I’m just now collecting research.
Shifting into Magnetism
This is not going to be the same for everyone. I believe we all experience magnetism differently.
For me, magnetism feels like joy bubbling in my sacral. When I start giggling uncontrollably, like when I see a puppy, or when I’m so in the moment.
Magnetism to me feels like forgetting about what I desire, because I’m so involved in the living.
I don’t feel the need to seek. I don’t feel the need to create or make or be. I just am. When I’m in my magnetism, I allow experiences and people to come into my field and then respond.
It feels like “what are the surprises coming today?”
I’ve only been in Denver for 3 days, and there’s already been so much shifting. I even was skipping, yes, skipping, and this woman yelled at me “Wow what a happy day!”
I have no idea what is coming for me, but I just know it is good and pure and full of love. That to me is magnetism. It feels like trust, but even more than that. It feels like I just get to be me.
Subtle Activations
What does magnetism feel like to you? How does it work with your energy?
What are some experiences you’ve had when you feel you’re in your magnetism?
What are some experiences you’ve had when you feel you’re not in your magnetism?
Imagine a place where you can easily step into this sensation of magnetism. Describe this place. Every element matters.
Take some time to really visualize your magnetism space.
When I first started diving into this idea of safety and magnetism, I always saw this giant field on a hill with tall grass, surrounded by evergreen. There’s a stream to the right-hand side, and the clouds are close as if I could reach up and touch them. I go there to lay in the field, allowing the grass to wrap around my body, watching the deer move through towards the water.
I’ve visualized this so often that I ended up painting it.
I think the reason I stayed in New York for so long was to build my understanding of these magnetic spaces. I think about the feelings this space brings me and then compare my outer reality with this space.
I’ve noticed that the longer I am on my journey, the more I’m stepping into this feeling.
Before I left, I painted one of my best friends a landscape with the idea of creating activation paintings. I wasn’t sure if it was a success of just a pretty painting, and when I left New York, I decided to put painting behind me for a bit.
My last day in Santa Fe, I showed someone the painting and they said “oh wow, that reminds me of the Great Tetons.”
I started tearing up because my friend will be traveling to the Tetons in the summer with her family.
Having someone new in my life validate what came through for my friend, I don’t know, it just hit me hard. It made me see how much I had been doubting my abilities, doubting what I wanted to do with painting.
Even if I don’t end up finding a home on this trip, the very least I’ve uncovered a little bit of my power. I don’t need to hide from it anymore.
And that’s what I hope for anyone that reads this. You don’t have to search for your purpose, your clarity, your gifts. Choosing to live in your joy, will just allow them to be so natural to your being; these things don’t sit outside of you.
Any time you feel doubt creeping in, or bitterness, or frustration, remind yourself of that place you visualize. That’s where you can always feel into your magnetism.
With love,
Talula
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